Cassie's Place

Hey everyone! I'm Cassie, a white transwoman living in Vancouver, Washington, or soon will be at any rate, with my lovely boyfriend, Mellowdusk, whose pony OC you can see in my avatar there. You can find links to both my NSFW blog and my transition journal at the top of the screen.

Been rewatching Stargate: Atlantis lately, because I recently rediscovered the entire series floating on my hard drives, and I was trying to find something to entertain me. I remember it as a show that did a ton of good but started to falter substantially in its last two seasons, due to killing off several good characters and general… lack of quality in the writing, a lack of quality that continued into Stargate: Universe and killed the television franchise.

Interesting, watching it again, seeing some problematic things I hadn’t spotted before… and yet a surprising amount of good too. Dr. Elizabeth Weir as a character in particular(at least until she was removed from the show so unfairly in season four) is quite feminist as a character. She hardly ever lets anyone push her around, and Torri Higgenson is a superb actress that really knows her stuff.

Teyla Emmagan, a WOC, is amazing as a character too, fast and strong, handles herself in a fight well, and is treated with a substantial amount of respect, relatively speaking, at least till a certain pregnancy plot I really try to forget about that went on late in the show. She does suffer from a bit of a “special” issue in the sense that she has special powers to sense the Wraith(evil space vampires, essentially) because she has some Wraith DNA, and that results in her being like Deanna Troi from TNG at times, talking about how she senses their presence and some of what they’re thinking.

You’ve also got a few other POCs as characters, and an overall slightly better than Hollywood average at racial representation. Unfortunately POC characters tended to die off early on(Peter Grodin, for instance) but on the whole it was a bit better about the whole thing, since part of the point to the Atlantis expedition was that it was an international team, rather than just a U.S. military operation like Stargate SG-1.

It’s a decent show, if you like science fiction. There are ways it could’ve been far better, but… I still like it.

Makoto Kino is totally a translady and no one will ever take that away from me.






cis people aren’t allowed to edit my papers anymore


It’s not my job to educate you, teacher.

I’m betting one hundred bucks that this is a comment about a really badly written essay and not someone being actively transphobic.

well, you’re about to owe me one hundred bucks.

  1. this is not the first time i mentioned privilege in the paper. or cisgender. this paper was written on my personal experiences with being trans, and the difficulties i’ve faced because of it, and the difficulties that cisgender people with otherwise comparable lives have not faced.
  2. the terms privilege and cisgender had both been thoroughly elaborated on in this paper.
  3. this paper was written for a women’s studies class, on gender analysis, in which both privilege and cisgender privilege in particular had been explained, elaborated upon, and discussed by the professor.
  4. the comment was not by the professor, it was by a cis classmate during a peer review.
  5. the words cisgender and privilege are both in scare quotes (in case you can’t google that or don’t know what it means or want to deny their existence, scare quotes is when you put a word or phrase in quotation marks to make it seem less real — the textual version of sarcastically making air quotes with your fingers)
  6. another edit, by the same editor, involved asking me what my birth name was. i’m sure you don’t need to be told that that’s transphobic.
  7. i spoke to the professor about this edit, and he agreed with me that the comment (and the way it was phrased) was out of line. in fact, he thought it was so out of line that he led a workshop for the class on how not to be disrespectful assholes to trans people (say, by asking for their birth name, or telling them they’re wrong or oversensitive about transphobia).
  8. i got a 99% on the essay — WITHOUT changing anything the edit asked for.
  9. the professor liked my essay so much that he asked to keep it as an EXAMPLE for future classes

bonus: if your reaction to seeing gross transphobic things is “well it’s probably the trans person’s fault”, then you’re gross and transphobic and i hope you don’t know any trans people IRL for their sake

(via thebombasticbookman)


Hey, look, a thing for 750 followers! Featuring friends, fans, and a couple people I admire and sometimes interact with, but am mostly just intimidated by. Thanks again, everyone.

Hurray! This is pretty awesome. Lookit little hon and me and DB and Derfurshur all together having fun, in a big party. Fun times!

I made a post earlier that was a bit more depressive than it needed to be. I deleted it, because I had a talk that… really helped change things a bit, a talk with my hon.

I need to make steps towards healing myself. I’m starting to. It’s a hard, difficult road, but I’m starting to.

I will admit I’m unsure if I should stop talking about it as much as I have been lately, or keep doing so more. I have a fear, you see, when I see no notes, that I’m irritating people with my post. Which is irrational, and ridiculous, but I feel that way even so, even though I know (because I have been told before) that it’s actually a result of people either

A. Not wanting to seem sadistic by hitting a like button (“I like your pain!”)

B. Not knowing what to say.

So I’m going to try to focus on just letting out what I need to for my own sake and not care if people are reading it or not, because as I said it’s for me. I think it’s a good step to take. This, incidentally, means my tumblr might become more personal than ever. By all means please unfollow if that bothers you. For those who use Tumblr savior, I will start tagging such posts with #cassiejournal, for easy filtering.

So without even realizing it had passed, I’ve been out at work as a lady for over a year now. It happened back in August, actually, near the end of the month. I found an old post from August 22nd, 2013, where I mentioned talking to my managers.

It’s been a strange year since then. I’ve changed completely, in face, in appearance, in my dress, my name, my voice, being on hormones… and of course I found the best man in the world too. My life has become so much better since then.

I wasn’t even sure if I should mention it at first, but I feel like I should. I mean there are new employees who take me as just another girl, who have no idea that I’m trans, and I haven’t told them because why should I mess up a good thing? Sure, other people still know. A couple are more assholish than ever, where they treated me slightly worse the more I changed. (Thankfully I almost never work with them anymore.)

But yeah. Over a year. Since that time, I’m a completely different woman. It’s remarkable.

Where will I be, in September of 2015? I can’t wait to find out.














Dildo Generator

Online 3D experiment by Ikaros Kappler which is described as a “Extrusion/Revolution Generator” ….

Created with three.js, you can alter the bezier curves and angle of the form, and is designed with 3D printing in mind (models can be exported and saved, as well as calculated weight in silicone).

Try it out for yourself (if you wish) here

the time is now

hell yeah


ah yes, the ol rolling pin dilda



it’s called the purple ramjet

which end do you start with? the answer is yours to decide

shove a vase up your ass

not even jesus could save yall motherfuckers’ souls

i call it the matterhorn

cackling just continues to get louder as I scroll through

i think this is the first time an internet community has discovered something customizable and adamantly refused to make penises

we have achieved perfection

(via thebombasticbookman)


Today is my birthday! I’m turning 24. :3

Yes you are, cutie face. :3

Everyone wish my hon a happy birthday! He is the bestest.

This is totally not me, ya’ll. I’m not a kelpie. I promise.


Stuck by Umbreon24

I’ve been craving Rainbow Pie lately. Been working on a new story, that is supposed to be RariDash, darn it, but here comes Rainbow Pie trying to be all Rainbow Pie goodness.

Guess it could be Rainbow RariPie…

Well, I received a ride home tonight, from one of my managers. She lives in Vancouver anyway, so yay, hurray for being taken home! Even my bike was brought back, so I saved the frustrating two hour train and bus trip.

Tomorrow is my boyfriend’s birthday. It will be a bunch of relaxing celebration. The rest of the week will be more stressful, more things I have to do, but tomorrow will be good.

Really on the whole I’m… okay, for now. Not the best I’ve ever been, but I’m getting a bit better. I can cope.

And I want to say thank you, to all ya’ll, for putting up with my whining and other angst.

Asker Anonymous Asks:
Hi! I'm sorry to bother, but I have a question. I have a friend who looks white (blonde, light skin, green eyes) but was actually born and raised in India by her Hindu parents. She practices Hinduism and only recently moved to the states. She still wears traditional clothing, but the other day she posted a picture of herself in her traditional clothes and got a lot of hate for it, people saying it was cultural appropriation. She's bummed out about it and is now questioning her ethnicity. Help?
kyronea kyronea Said:





1. All those people screaming cultural appropriation at her are ignoramuses who are basically saying, “Wow, you don’t look like my ill-informed, narrow-minded stereotype of what people from this region actually look like!” and “I actually subscribe to horrible, reductionist stereotypes that Indian people can only have dark hair, skin and eyes. Light hair? Green eyes? European (origin) only!” 

This is gonna be a tad long, because it’s gonna delve into biology and history- and it’s because I hope people realise how artificial the US paradigm of race is. It’s woefully incompetent at understanding the biological diversity of our species because it is a social construct. Modern scientists and historians generally refuse to categorise people on the amount of melanin they have because it’s just reductionist and oversimplistic- what they do is classify people by their geographic origin, linguistic and cultural ties. 

2. India is an EXTREMELY diverse continent. It’s so genetically diverse that the only place more genetically diverse is the African continent, aka, the birthplace of humanity. And this is a big deal. I’ll explain why.


Surprise! People inhabiting an extremely large country that has more than 2000 ethnic groups, members of all the world’s religions, been the site of multiple ancient civilisations, been on the major crossroads of human migration and trade for thousands of years come in multiple colours!

  • Presently, the most widely-accepted theory of our origins is the Recent African Origin, or Out of Africa TheoryThis holds that originally, humans first appeared in Africa, thus all of us have African ancestors. All modern non-Africans are descended from much smaller groups of people who migrated out of Africa, anytime from 65,000 to 125,000 years ago. How do scientists know this? By looking at our DNA, in addition to fossil and archaeological records. They discovered that the differences in the DNA of non-African peoples like say, a German a Japanese and a New Zealand Maori was far less than the genetic differences between people from different African ethnic groups. (Somali, Dinka, Yoruba, San, Kikuyu, Luo etc- I’m BARELY scratching the surface)
  • What this meant was that Africa had to be the original, diverse genetic pool where modern humans first appeared. Everybody else outside of Africa today is descended from much smaller groups of people who left Africa at various times- and that ancestral genetic “bottleneck” is why people who appear to have very different heritage (e.g European vs East Asian) actually have far less genetic variation than the various African peoples.
  • So, India being the second most genetically diverse place on this planet is a big deal- it’s basically second only to THE CRADLE OF HUMANITY. That’s why I’m pretty convinced your friend can have blonde hair and green eyes and still be 100% Made in India.

3. Now, the genetics of India itself.

Genetic studies have shown that if you take a modern Indian from any part of India, no matter how dark or fair they are, his or her lineage will consist of mixing from two main ancestral groups. One is the Ancestral Northern Indians (ANI), and the other the Ancestral Southern Indians (ASI). You may have heard of the ancient Indian caste system which put a lot of social pressure that prohibited marrying outside your caste. Caste discrimination is banned today, but old attitudes do persist. However, even this caste rigidity wasn’t so 4000- 2000 years ago. ANI people married ASI pretty freely, so that’s why every modern Indian has heredity from both groups. So, already to start off, you got quite a fair bit of diversity hidden in people’s genes. 

  • And the next interesting part to explain why it IS possible for Indians to have features stereotyped as “European” is because while the ASI seemed to be genetically unique to the Indian subcontinent, the ANI people are genetically related to Middle-Easterns, Europeans and Caucasians (and I mean this not in the sense of “white” as often used in the US, but the actual region of Caucasus, which borders Europe and Asia).
  • You mentioned she looks “white”- and the American-understanding of “white” being hurled at her by those people screaming cultural appropriation are actually ignorantly treating “white” as synonymous with “European-origin”. In reality, it’s completely useless in the realm of biology. Biologically, there is actually no real dichotomy where “European” suddenly ends and “Asia” begins. 


  • As I earlier pointed out, well, we’re all kinda related. And it’s not at all earth-shattering that some people from India look like they’re of “European-origin”. Because modern Europeans, Central Asians and the Ancestral Northern Indians are all believed to be descendants of a group of people called the Proto-Indo-Europeans. It’s believed they lived around 6000-7000 years ago. Some modern people that are descended from the Proto-Indo-Europeans are French, Germans, Iranians and Pashtuns (a major ethnic group in Afghanistan).  It’s even been found that Europeans and Indians shared a gene for fair skin from a common ancestor- which is why there ARE people who look like your friend. Naturally, fair skin is just relatively rarer in India vs Europe because more parts of India are located in hotter regions. Therefore, there’s more selection pressure for darker skin which has more melanin to protect from the sun- making fair skin rarer, but still possible. 


(This is a map of the Kurgan Hypothesis, which is currently the most popular theory for how the Proto-Indo-Europeans migrated from their homeland to settle Europe, Central Asia, Iran, India and Turkey etc)

  • Saying Indians are descendants of the Proto-Indo-Europeans is NOT the same as saying they’re of “European origin”. For example, think of the Proto-Indo-Europeans as like the “mother” of Europeans, Central Asians and the Ancestral Northern Indians- they’re like “sibling” groups, not descendants. The original Indo-Europeans were not “European” in the modern sense. I am clarifying this because plenty of colonial-era scientific racism tried to attribute ancient India’s achievements to “European who left Europe for India”- you might have heard the phrase “Aryan” thrown around in Nazi Germany, which was used to mean “blonde hair, blue eyes”. Nazi scientists and historians also abused it to explain away the sophistication of non-European civilisations in Ancient Egypt and India. In reality, ”Aryan” is derived from the ancient Sanskrit word “Arya" which means "noble". Sanskrit is an ancient language still used in classical Indian texts, and is of Proto-Indo-European origin. For example, the name of the country “Iran” actually means “land of the Aryans”- it was the names ancient Iranians (another people descended from the Proto-Indo-Europeans) gave to what others called the Persian Empire for more than a thousand years before the Third Reich. 

image(Sanskrit manuscript)

  • Furthermore, many languages we often separate as “European” and “Asian” like German, English, French, Italian vs. Hindi, Farsi (Persian), Gujarati, Punjabi, Pashto, Sanskrit etc are ALL classified by linguists as belonging to the same Indo-European language family- which all evolved from the original language the Proto-Indo-Europeans spoke. See how artificial the Europe/Asia dichotomy really is, in terms of human genetics and origin of cultures? 

4. Finally- there’s plenty of modern proof that the region we call Europe today does NOT have a monopoly on producing people with blonde hair, fair skin and green eyes.

This is Aishwarya Rai Bachchan, a popular Indian Bollywood actress who is also known for her striking blue-green eyes. She’s 100% Indian- she was born in Mangalore, India to Indian parents. 


This is a couple at their wedding- the lady on the left is Indian, from the Southern Indian city of Hyderabad. Her husband is Ethiopian.image

This is a photo of a boy and a woman who is likely his mother, taken in Turkey.


This is a girl from Darfur, Sudan- an area that has more than 30 ethnic groups.


This is a Nuristani girl. The Nuristani people are an ethnic group from Afghanistan. 


5. And in the first place, what makes up a person’s identity IS NOT JUST HOW MUCH or HOW LITTLE MELANIN THEY HAVE.

  • Tell your friend she is 100% Indian, because what makes up her identity is not just how she looks. Identity is what feels most natural to her, and if that identity is indeed very intertwined with major aspects of Indian culture- then well, she IS Indian and noone can say otherwise. 
  • Those people had no right to make her feel awful and “not-Indian enough” because it’s clear she identifies as such due to actually being born there and also practising major aspects of Indian culture. The best example I can think of to explain this is how in the US, people sometimes use the term “Latino” as a race category, with the stereotype that all latinos must have tanned skin and dark hair. In reality, it’s more of a cultural identity. The are fair haired-latinos and darker-skinned latinos whose ancestors included the African slaves brought to the Americas four hundred years ago. But what really makes them “Latino” or “Hispanic” is their upbringing- growing up in the environment of Latin America, which is culturally a syncretic fusion of Amerindian, African, Spanish, Portuguese and other European influences. 


(This is the Brazilian football team that won the 1970 World Cup- you can see Pelé- second from the bottom right. He is an Afro-Brazilian. If you look at his teammates, you can see how latinos come in ALL COLOURS.)

6. Your friend should not be questioning her identity, but those people attacking her should be questioning their utterly myopic worldview. The history of human genetics and migrations makes it abundantly clear how DIVERSE India is- so it’s perfectly possible for her to be Indian but have blonde hair and green eyes, even if it may be less common. 

7. On a more general note, I cannot stress this enough to everyone- DO NOT GO AROUND ATTACKING PEOPLE for “cultural appropriation” when you are NOT even from that culture in question and/or don’t actually know in detail the history and genetics of that region.

  • If you suspect cultural appropriation: DO YOUR RESEARCH FIRST or ASK SOMEBODY you know who actually belongs to that group. You may be attacking mixed-race people or people like the anon’s friend, who simply has features that are less genetically dominant- blonde hair shows up less easily in countries with a bigger pool of people with dark hair because dark hair is dominant. Even if her parents had dark hair, it’s possible they both carried a recessive gene for blonde hair that was suppressed by their dark-hair gene. Their child would be blonde if she happened to get both copies of the blonde gene instead of the dark hair gene.
  • Also, even if you think the person isn’t of that group, please bear in mind they might have been invited to dress in that clothing by a friend, or because they’re at an event. (I.e let’s say, at an Indian wedding)
  • I can’t stress how infuriating this “white knight” complex is. Speaking as someone pretty familiar with colonialism, I’ve had people who didn’t grow up in my culture condescendingly insist that if I’m okay with somebody doing something from my culture, it’s “self-internalised oppression”. I’ve studied African colonial literature, and the way people insist on defining what people should be alright with is very reminiscent of 19th century imperialists high-handedly saying, “oh, we have to bring the light of civilisation to save those backwards colonial subjects from themselves!”


This is Reese Witherspoon, wearing a kimono in Japan, where she is being taught by JAPANESE people how to perform the traditional tea ceremony. This is not reducing a culture to a caricature because she’s actually learning stuff respectfully and wearing a bona fide kimono.

  • Fighting against cultural appropriation is to prevent cultures from being cheapened, made into jokes, sexual fetishes or ugly caricatures. Part of returning power to people to define themselves is ALSO by allowing them to set the parameters of what they want to share with others- and many cultures are perfectly willing to share aspects that are non-sacred or do not have to be earned. So, for example, do not go around insisting a Japanese person should not be allowed to teach non-Japanese people to wear a kimono- because a kimono, unlike a Navajo war bonnet (akin to veteran’s medals), is something anybody can wear. Recognise this difference.

Know the difference.

*human-migration-related-history boner*

It might be also nice to keep in mind that a person can be raised in a country and culture that their (biological) parents are not from. If they identify with both the culture of their family and of their home, that is great. If they identify more or even fully with only one that is also perfectly fine and their choice. They should not have to ‘prove’ anything with genetics.

Existence is… strange.

Strange in that in our lives, we experience so many sights, so many sounds, smells, tastes, sensations, that we don’t even remember a good ninety eight percent of it or so, because our brains just can’t handle all that information. What we do remember, that two percent, that can define us, can make or break us.

So often it is the traumatic, the awful, the ways in which existence whips us to an inch of our lives, that we remember, over the happy times. Sometimes it makes it so hard to look at our lives in a way separated from the emotions, to look and say “My life is actually pretty good!”

Sometimes the darkness tries to destroy us. To worm its way into us so much that it makes us cry out for it to cease, for existence to stop, just so the pain will go away.

But that’s not for me. I won’t listen to anything that tells me to end my existence. I want to exist. I want to live. No matter how rough my life might sometimes feel… it’s life. And I want to keep on living.